What an amazing weekend I had. My best friend came to visit
What an amazing weekend I had. My best friend came to visit
and it was exactly what I needed. It’s been a rough year here in Chicago; starting over and trying to make new friends is hard in a new city, especially when I’ve been dealing with other things previously mentioned here on the blog. I’ve made plenty of friends and I have some pretty amazing people in my life right now but there is just nobody like your BFF.
I haven’t laughed as hard and as much as I did this weekend in what feels like years.
I’d like to say that I’m completely healed, but the truth is, I’m just not. It has and is going to continue to be a journey for me. I’ve had some set backs; however, spending a weekend with someone who knows me better than anyone; someone who cares, listens and just cries with me really helped put me in a new mindset. I feel refreshed.
So there ya have it – we talked, we cried, we laughed…HARD! And now I miss her so much!!!!!!!!!!
I dropped the bestie off today and sadly took the long train ride home all by myself.It was actually kinda hard to come back to my empty apartment. So I distracted myself and went for a long run. You heard me…a run!
I get so many emails asking how my health is (which I appreciate so much) so thank you! I go back and forth with how much I should put out there. This blog has truly gone in so many directions, but seeing how much support I’ve gotten from people who want to know how I’m doing, or can just relate makes me feel like it’s important to do this. So I’m going to try to get back into writing whether it’s not always a happy and positive as I’d like it to be, I do want to share and I want to get back to that happy place…so bad!
So here it is….
I’m still struggling with my eating disorder. I was actually doing really well but for some reason took many steps back and my head got clouded with some pretty disordered thinking. I’d like to think I’m on my way out now BECAUSE I can admit this and say that I’m trying to hard to get out of it. I really am.
As for my other health problems – those seem to be getting SO much better. Like I mentioned above…I RAN! My legs are working again (yay) and other things have happened that make me think I’m on the mend. This is also another reason why I want so bad to be OK. I see the effect that my bad decisions have had on my body and I paid for it, I’m still paying for it. I only want to get better.
This post was a bit of a jumble but it’s not often that I want to just blurt this stuff out, so I went with it.
I’m really going to try to keep up with this and also start to include my healthy decisions instead of my bad decisions.
We’ll see what happens from here but I just want to thank everyone so much for reaching out. I’m so sorry for disappearing but thank you for following me on my never-ending journey.
Wish me luck for tomorrow! There’s a winter storm warning saying to stay indoors if possible – extreme temperature warning! Gahhhh I’ll be bundling up, that’s for sure.
For now though, look how beautiful
Right outside of my door. As gorgeous as that looks I seriously can’t wait for that to melt, the sun to come out and me to be able to run by the lake – it’s right there!
For now I’m keeping myself busy on the stairs and in the weight room
This was my cardio yesterday
I took the bus to the gym, ran a few miles on the stairs and then did a back/bi workout.
I ended up just walking home – trying to enjoy being outside as much as possible before I absolutely can’t stand to be next week. Who would have thought this would be my life..
Anyway, last night was so much fun. Went to a surprise b-day party for a friend and I’m so glad I went. It’s easy to want to lock yourself up when it’s so cold or when you’re feeling down – it helps to surround yourself with good people
so that’s what I’m trying to do.
Happy New Year!
2013 flew by and I always say that but really – this year feels like a blur. So much has happened; good and bad, but I’m focusing on the positive this new year and want to acknowledge all of the wonderful things that did happen -
I made amazing friends in San Diego this past year through things that I love; the gym, races, surfing, exploring…I probably made some of my closest friends withIn the last 2 but specifically this one.
I pitched my own TV show to a TV station and actually got my own segment on the morning news on UT~TV
I appeared in weekly news segments with a celebrity trainer performing workouts to San Diego on KUSI Morning news
I became a fitness ambassador for a yoga clothing company
I ran the SoCal Ragnar Relay and pushed myself harder than I ever thought possible while having one of THE best times of my LIFE – a 200 mile adventure!
I appeared in a New Balance sponsored workout video
I started a video blog on a local news website on ways to stay active in San Diego
I moved from San Diego to Chicago and got a job in IT….I mother effing T….who woulda thought! : )
So here I am. From sunshine to snow….from beach bum to city girl…
I’m ready to make 2014 just as wonderful as 2013, without some of the hiccups that happened along the way, of course.
I want to continue to work on projects that I’ve let get away from me, I want to spend quality time with people I love and care for and develop equally significant relationships in Chicago. Let loose and enjoy my life more. Be positive. Be healthy. Be loving and caring. Be a better daughter, friend, cousin, niece, sister, BFF…I want to INspire, BE inspired and focus on things I love and feel passionate about.
I want to laugh more
I hope everyone has an absolutely amazing new year!
Always fresh starts here at HSDL but that’s ok because you have to start somewhere. I had many years of failed attempts to quit smoking but I did it, so I can’t give up on other goals I have now, even if it takes me some time.
If it wasn’t official then it most certainly is now. I LIVE in Chicago. I am OFFICIALLY the proud renter of my very own (yep, no roommates) apartment. I now reside in Lincoln Park and I couldn’t be more excited and well….SCARED!
I have never lived completely on my own. I went from having roommates, to living with 7 other people when I moved to Chicago. My cousin and her husband have been SO kind and let me stay with them until I figured out my situation here. That meant I was living with them AND their 3 boys! It was fun but 7 months later….I’m excited to be on my own in a new city.
This is my fresh start. I mean how much fresher can I get. I picked up and moved to a new city where I knew no one and now I am staying and actually creating a home here. I think a large part of me struggled with being at my cousins. Yes, I was completely grateful but I really didn’t consider any place home and I think that effected me in many ways….I’m hoping this is a great new positive change.
So I officially moved in on Saturday and so far I have a bed and a tv. After spending the night I have been thinking of the 1st things really need to focus on getting that will make the apartment more complete. On my list:
Comforter – I’m using a blanket right now that actually keeps me very warm but I think I need a comforter to make it look nicer
Paint – Accent wall
Art and candles (for decoration)
Leg Extensions for my bed…it’s too low
It’s going to take me a while to get all of these things…probably the 6 months that I’m actually in this place but considering I came to Chicago with absolutely nothing, this is a good start!
And BTW I am the luckiest girl in the WORLD to have the family that I do!
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