It’s been months now that I’ve been staring at the blog; telling myself I’m going to write again, that I’m going to just sit down and say something…anything. But of course, every day I put it off – I find something better to do, and distract myself so that I don’t have to figure out something witty to grab your attention, but today I’m here with my computer, sitting at my favorite little coffee shop on Siesta Key and I thought …A LOT has happened in my life since the last time I made an entry. Way too much that it might actually bore you if I go into too much detail, so here are some highlights-
I moved….to Florida…with Florida
I started a new job
Got a new car
And…I turned 30. Joy…
So the turning 30 part wasn’t actually as bad as I imagined it would be because well, I may or may not have been getting extreme agita the entire month before my birthday, almost dreading the day I wasn’t in my 20s anymore. Tell me I’m not the only one….?
Florida took me to Miami and we had the most amazing time. I feel so so lucky…so so loved. We enjoyed the beach, the nightlife; exploring and just relaxing…it was the perfect getaway for us!
Now we’re back to reality and it hit me again…I’m 30! And what do I have to show for myself?
So I started thinking about it again, and maybe this is my mature 30 year old mind doing the thinking now, but what do I have to show for myself? A lot actually! I was pretty down before the day because I always pictured a different life at this age – that’s the part that I think got me down the most. And not down in the sense that I don’t love my life now - more that I felt behind in life. Is that even possible? What If I had everything I thought I would right at this moment and at this age? I.e. Married, babies, the whole kit and caboodle…then I’m almost positive there would be other things I wished I had, other things I wished I accomplished and experienced.
It’s never enough, is it? My little epiphany, the one that drew me back here today, is that I’m going to make it enough. I have a pretty rad little life and an amazing boyfriend and support system here in Florida. It’s time to enjoy life where I’m at and let everything happen that’s supposed to happen. This life I’m living is now turning out to be everything I didn’t even know I wanted, and how lucky am I that I get the experiences and adventures that I’ll remember forever which will only make everything else that much better in the future.
But I digress
I feel like I’m really productive when I’m actively blogging, and not just productive as in not sitting on the couch and watching mindless TV (I’ll always do that. Duh.) I mean blogging has always helped motivate me to go after the things I’m most passionate about. Fitness, adventures, happiness, taking chances….
So I’m going to make an effort to blog multiple times a week and see what transpires this year. Once again, I’m in a brand new city (one that I love, might I add.) I’m really excited to start a new journey in my 30s with new goals and aspirations.
And honestly, if this is 30….
…..then I’m pretty stoked